We need to talk.

 This isn’t a topic that is talked about much, the topic is the dehumanization and infantilization of autistic people. there’s this one lady who works at my school named mrs. Gigi. She wears a puzzle piece pin to try and show awareness. I’m a diagnosed autistic person, so of course I tried to tell her why that symbol was wrong and when I told her, she pitied me for my autism and started treating me like a little kid ever since I told her I’m autistic. Also whenever she sees me in the hallway she forces me to make eye contact and talk to her. Genuine question, has she ever actually met an autistic person before? My grandma is also ableist. Also my grandma says I’m not disabled because if I was “actually disabled” I wouldn’t be speaking. She thinks someone is only disabled if they can’t function normally on a day to day basis. Well guess what boomer, disabled people don’t have to “look disabled”. She think’s autistic people’s struggles only matter when they’re high support needs. She even said that autism awareness month is only for people who are “affected by autism”, And yet she says “worry about school”. She also says I’m only “a little autistic”, autism isn’t like seasoning, you can’t only have a little or a lot of it. If you’re autistic, you’re autistic. Autism is a spectrum so every autistic person is different and has different needs. Remember, Autism is literally stated as a disability in the dsm-5. 

Im so glad that autism “awareness” month is finally over

im so fucking glad that its over. i fucking hate the puzzle piece, i want to burn autism speaks at the stake. as an autistic person, i am deeply angered at how society ignores our voices and opinions as if we're not humans. my brother's friend (used to be) called me 'acoustic', well guess what??? HIS MOM SAYS HE HAD ADHD XD!!!! ahahaahahah im such a devious little goober, i know something no one in my school does. its that the puzzle piece is harmful and infantalizing to actual autistic people like me.

Gender dysphoria at it’s finest - AJ DiGiacomo

hi. its aj, yet again. i just opened my birthday gifts from my grandma (the one i still have), and she got me some really feminine things that made me very dysphoric. one of them was a spa set that literally (not metaphorically) had girl written all over it. she also told me that she got me stuff from 'hot topics' (what she calls hot topic cuz she's a boomer) but it was knockoff hot topic from amazon. at least my aunt is getting me fnaf plushies for my collection (the freddy and bonnie ones to complete my fnaf 1 collection) plus i got gummy sharks, they taste so good

Help me I am sleep deprived and out for vengeance

I was on the way home from florida last night (the drive was 18 hours long and it started in the morning). I had to sleep IN THE CAR & WITH MY BROTHER. we were both fighting for the headrest and I almost got no sleep because of the discomfort. I also was drinking cherry coke and I got McDonald’s. He also thought of a stupid meme and we both laughed for a little while which didn’t help at all. Also, at the hotel I was staying at, I made a friend at the pool. Me and him trauma dumped to each other and I came out of the pool crying. My brother met him and called him “the queer looking vexbolts kid”(he says he looked like vexbolts). I also missed my dog, her name is Ellie and she’s black. She had to stay with my grandparents while me and my family were gone

Weird dog named pikachu I saw at a restroom stop on a road trip

I stopped at a bathroom in South Carolina and I saw one of these things when I came out (no joke it literally looked like this) I think it’s a chihuahua pug/ chug. It gave me a weird look and I ran to the car. right after my weird experience at the bathroom, the dog was outside. the people in the bathroom looked absolutely looked miserable and it smelled horrible in the bathroom. my parents keep saying they'll stop at a buc-ee's but theyve been saying that for hours.

Epic’s day at epic universe in Orlando, Florida

 I got a Mario plush. also, i was kind of in this photo

None of the rides were really that fun, I didn’t scream that much. The mac n cheese was okay I guess. Mom is still being too clingy, everything is normal. I’m going home tomorrow and arriving on Sunday. I have a lot of work to make up when I get back to school, at least I get to see my girlfriend again! My grandma and aunt got me some birthday gifts for when I get home. My aunt is getting me the fnaf plushies I need for my collection and my grandma is getting me things from my wishlist 

Rant/vent about how ableist society is

 “You’re so funny” thanks, my parents used my  autism diagnosis as an excuse to get on rides faster at an amusement park. They also lied about me being ‘high support needs’ and ‘unable to wait on lines’. I was waiting on a line for a water slide and the attendant working there was telling me ‘one at a time’ which I didn’t know since it was my first time. My mom whispered to her, and I quote, “she’s on the spectrum” first of all, *he. Secondly, you don’t need to say that for every minor inconvenience. I honestly didn’t give a fuck but my mom was mad at that woman. When I was a little kid, my mom brought up “declassification”, an ableist term describing getting autism taken off of my diagnosis. My mom also cried when I got my adhd diagnosis. Plus everyone cares about me too much and treats me differently because I’m neurodivergent. I made a joke about killing myself when I was really mad and I had to be evaluated at a hospital and I was prescribed medication. Also, as a little kid my mom would stop me from stimming by telling me “flapping is for birds”